Sympathy Pain

Sarah and I are coming up on our first anniversary. It feels like this year has been crazy long. Not in a “Jesus God…this is worse than Chinese water torture” but in a “how did we cram 10 pounds of crap in a 5 pound bag?” kinda way. We’ve done a whole bunch, between all of Jack’s sports, to being in a show together, to working on various productions, to…there is something else…oh yeah, getting pregnant.
So I went back and read my old blog and discovered this from a year ago today. I though I’d share the thoughts of a man about to marry an amazing woman:

October 10, 2006
so…I feel like i should have something profound to say about my history with the opposite sex. Or something to those in my past…distant or otherwise. But I realized that this is not about where I’m from, but where i going. Other than the debauchery, that’s really what the bachelor party is for…one more for the road. But I am marrying someone who doesn’t make me feel I’m “giving up” anything. My life with Sarah is full of more possibilities than without her. Everyone keeps saying…4 days before your freedom is gone…no more bachelor stuff…well, I don’t know what there is to change that isn’t for the better. I am happy…for the first time in a while. I have nothing to hide, no reservations, no skeletons in the closet. It feels amazing. i can only imagine where we will go from here. I don’t know of many people who could say exactly what is on there mind ABOUT their spouse TO their spouse 100% of the time. That’s what I have with Sarah. Why would I have any regrets about that. Why would I want to be dating someone without that…and that’s what it has always been with the past…non full disclosure. I watch these Bridzilla shows and 9 times outta 10 the bride and groom aren’t truthful to each other over one thing or another. An hour program and at least once there is something said that wouldn’t be said in the presence of the significant other.

So…to the future. Cheers. I am here because of my journey, and what a long strange journey it has been. But I have nothing to say to the past and everything to look forward to in the future.

I hope you read this and know exactly what I mean. If not…I hope you find it one day.

I love my wife.